this Halloween

Journal entry 10/26

What’s terrifying this Halloween is how much I’m weighed down by the feeling that dying seems much easier than fighting ongoing battle of depression..

That self-harm seems to be the only thing I can think of that can distract me from how much my body hates me right now— between the existing side effects of Klonopin + withdrawal symptoms— I feel like I can’t stand being in my own skin.

On my way to TMS and Ketamine.

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