I had TMS today, it was sort of miserable because I have this headache that never goes away. I’m so tired of feeling physically ill from my Klonopin. The way we originally organized the taper was going to last until mid November and this morning I decided to just get it done in 5 days. It’s probably going to be miserable but I just cannot deal with these symptoms for another couple of weeks. My stomach has intense muscle cramping, which means it’s also difficult for me to eat.
Having a tough day in general— specifically with my self-esteem. I can’t seem to figure out what my worth is. I feel as though I lost track of my identity.
I hope that I’ll be feeling better in the morning, the ketamine shouldn’t have worn off this quickly. Some days are just really hard.