Today feels heavy—tomorrow probably will too. My brain is still so sick, the state of our nation is even more so.
On days like today I wonder if all I’m doing is taking and draining resources from people who can actually be helped.
I’m barely sleeping. It could be could be a side effect of the TMS, or medication changes, or stress and depression… I’m restless and wake myself up at least 5 times a night. Often times I have to get out of bed and walk around or sleep on the couch for a bit.
There is no time to rest during the day with distance learning. and my treatment schedule. Things seem so bleak right now.
Tomorrow I have therapy, TMS, and a ketamine infusion. I just need to make it another 12 hours.