Today I have to skip TMS which I’m not happy about because for the last 24 hours I have been feeling dizzy— not the nauseous kind, but the kind of dizzy you feel when you are weaning off medications, or after ECT.
I have been so consistent and accountable with all of my treatments and medications. I want to be in remission SO BADLY.
I am feeling defeated, and pessimistic (which is really not me). I’m just SO OVER THIS. I’m crying or tearing up for the majority of the day. I need this to stop. I need a break. I need a different brain. I am just so sick of myself.