dark thoughts

I can never relax, i’m constantly in survival mode. I watch TV, read, scroll through social media, hang out with the guys, journal, blog, homeschool, make plans, listen to music.. anything to keep me going so my depression doesn’t paralyze me.

On Thursday Jim and I are going up north for a few days to celebrate our seventh anniversary. I’m really looking forward to the break and spending time with him but it also terrifies me not to have all of the distractions.

I’m completely exhausted, but not the kind sleep can fix (although it helps). I would just love to go to bed relaxed for a change.