I’ve been trying to outrun my sadness. If I pause, I start to cry and my suicidal ideation gets scary. I am just so over today — my patience is thin, I’m irritable, my head hurts, the feeling of hopelessness is heavy.
This year is brutal for everyone. I wasn’t ready for a fraction of I went through, but obviously I was built for it. I had no idea I was capable of this much inner strength and perseverance.
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Be well, be kind, happy solstice.
i will grow from this 