Fridays are hard.

We’ve noticed a pattern that starts on Thursdays– I start to feel anxious and usually just chalk it up to being tired from the long week and TMS, but as soon as I wake up on Friday my heart just starts racing because I know that if I crash, I won’t be able to see Danielle for a ketamine infusion until Tuesday. And the thing is, I don’t always need an infusion during the weekend– sometimes I feel just fine, but the fear is real.

I just hate that I’m actually feeling okay right now, I’m not sobbing in bed, or battling suicidal ideation, but I do feel as though I’m crashing slowly. The anxiety robs me of my peace and it’s so difficult live in the moment.

I’m going to repeat these affirmations this weekend:

  • I will get through this, I do every time.
  • I am safe.
  • I have skills to help me get through rough emotions.
  • I am not alone.

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