It’s been two days since I’ve had severe suicidal ideation and while that is good news, I also have a sinking feeling that it’s only a matter of time before it returns, it feels like a countdown. I don’t consider myself as a pessimist but this year has beaten me up– can I trust the progress?
“Your fighting an invisible battle every fucking moment, just want to remind you (as I have no doubt many others are as well!) that we see you fighting.”
– Brit Lee
Something that has been a real struggle for me is that I get REALLY restless, it happens during the day but especially at night– I just cannot stay still and I have to get out of bed to walk around and stretch, but it’s keeping me from sleeping. I had to take a NyQuil a couple times this week so I can get at least 6 hours of sleep– I cannot do TMS on days when I have fewer than 6 hours.